i'm going to mope a little for a minute. i'm really sick. it started on friday and ive been having fevers come and go since. swollen lymph nodes and now my throat is sore. aches, chills, etc. flus do not last this long, so today i think i am going to go to the urgent care. (i am so lucky i am insured or id be FUCKED). i went to work last night thinking i felt better and a couple hours in i had another fever, looked ghostly, and could hardly stand... and i couldnt leave til the end of the night. i've been in bed resting drinking fluids. lonely as shit wishing i didnt feel so horrible. my roommates work all day so it's quiet... but my best friend did bring me apple sauce and gatorade the other day. i just wish i had body heat next to me to spoon me and get me more tylenol and watch movies with. bleh. not a relationship just company. Haha. i'm suuuuch a baby when i'm sick. my mother is a nurse so she always took care of me and brought me popsicles and gave me food from the "b.r.a.t" diet (bananas, rice, applesauce, toast)for when you are sick. the reason i am so bothered is because i get sick really frequently... my immune system pretty much hates me. (i got an hiv joke already and it's not fucking funny. negative, thanks.) i've been tested for anemia several times but never had anything to lay the blame on. i just want to go like, a month where there is nothing wrong with me. my annual physical/check up is on the 7th so i think they are going to run some more blood tests then and try to find out why i get sick so often.
on top of that some lady smashed into my car while it was PARKED when i was in la so now it's in the shop, costing me $ for cabs when public transportation isn't an option.
i need to find a day job that doesn't suck. i've been working on that.
my running shoes (along with a bag of dirty laundry) got stolen when i was in la. by a hobo. out of the back of bst's truck. yeah, haha. my own lack of common sense not to put them in the backseat locked up!! so now some hobo has basically all of my underwear,my gym stuff, some shirts, & my nintendo pj pants. i put the shoes on my wishlist but i'm not counting on anything. my phoenixaskani@gmail.com email got hacked when i was in la too. contacted gmail but didn't get a response so i had to make a new one. it's discomforting because i had alot of personal info in that account. and my boobs everywhere probably but i don't care much about that.
this post isn't really for sympathy. it's just to vent all this shit out. i don't know if i'm having bad karma right now or just bad luck. but it's lame. and i'm going to do everything i can to turn it around because i'm a pretty damn positive person. but at this very moment i felt like whining. :)
ps - on the bright side la was amazing and ill blog about that soon. also excited for my new set of course!
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